Saturday, May 17, 2014

Procrastination, Laziness and Lack of Motivation


After practically two months of not taking the LSAT as seriously as I should, I have finally decided to man up, focus and put my all into studying. I now have 19 weeks until the LSAT, putting me a little under 5 months of study time. 

One of my biggest obstacles in LSAT studying would definitely have to be my sleep schedule in where I stay up super late (were talking 6AM) and sleep in until 3 PM. Talk about complete and utter laziness here! I’ve always been one that liked loved my sleep and the fact that I’m not taking any summer classes isn’t making it any better. The main reason I decided to not take any summer courses was so that I could exhaust all of my efforts into studying for the LSAT. We all can see where that’s going! 

I was originally signed up for the June 2014 LSAT but recently decided to postpone until September due the fact that I know without a doubt that I haven’t been giving it my full potential. I’ve had a pretty tough semester emotionally and mentally leaving me with little energy or motivation to get through the semester, much less balance LSAT prep. I signed up for Testmasters Live Course that started on March 31st and initially I was very optimistic about the course, the LSAT and most of all my abilities. I was keeping up with the homework for the most part and making it to the 4 hours of class three times a week. Shortly after, I found the pace of the course to be too fast for me and struggled to grasp all of the new information and make sense of it all. Continuing on throughout the course, extracurricular activities, the difficulty of my course load/ assignments and emotional strain all caught up to me. I found myself missing LSAT class and being completely overwhelmed with finals and the disappointment of not having the 4.0 GPA I had hoped for the semester. 


Now as I sit, finally at peace with the mess of a semester I’ve had and giving myself time to do absolutely nothing, I have built up enough courage to attack the beast that we all know as the LSAT. I have three weeks left of the Testmasters course and I plan on self-studying here on out until September 27th, 2014. I want to prove to myself again that I am capable of accomplishing whatever I set my mind to and just overall believe in myself. I have decided to make a study schedule as well as meal prep on Sunday for the following week.  If you are ever consumed with nagging thoughts of inadequacy, underperformance or just plain burnout, just know that only you are in control of your attitude you can either choose to throw in the towel or keep going. I know that this will be a hard, trying journey for me but I know that if I stay motivated and focused that I can do it. Here’s to Going Confidently in the Direction of My Dreams.